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Thank you, whoever sent the sweet (but anonymous) comment about 'The Warehouse'. It made my day.
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I have a new story up, called The Warehouse. It's a bdsm scene somewhat inspired by real life. Comments appreciated, always.
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Does anyone actually follow the link from asstr.org to read this? You can leave a comment anonymously if you'd like.
Today I found myself thinking about sex during church, again. This time, with the realization that once lust is awakened, it's hard for me to shut it off again, even when I'm trying to concentrate on something else.
I don't think I've written about this here, but I've been deliberately celibate for over a year, up until this weekend. Part of why I started writing and posting stories was to have some kind of outlet, while I grappled with my feelings about sex and relationships. Yesterday I realized that it had been long enough, that I was too hungry for touch and ready to move on. I hope that whatever I have learned in the last year and a half is enough. Wish me luck.
That Book of Water sequel is still only half finished. I think I know what I need to change about the story now, how to make it gel, but I've been preoccupied with a lot of other things and haven't gotten around to working on it in a while. Eventually I'll have something new to post, though.
Today I found myself thinking about sex during church, again. This time, with the realization that once lust is awakened, it's hard for me to shut it off again, even when I'm trying to concentrate on something else.
I don't think I've written about this here, but I've been deliberately celibate for over a year, up until this weekend. Part of why I started writing and posting stories was to have some kind of outlet, while I grappled with my feelings about sex and relationships. Yesterday I realized that it had been long enough, that I was too hungry for touch and ready to move on. I hope that whatever I have learned in the last year and a half is enough. Wish me luck.
That Book of Water sequel is still only half finished. I think I know what I need to change about the story now, how to make it gel, but I've been preoccupied with a lot of other things and haven't gotten around to working on it in a while. Eventually I'll have something new to post, though.
new story!
Last week I met someone who told me that she'd been having dreams about Texas, and that started me off on a bit of free-association that turned into a story. As always, it turned out a little different than I expected. It also doesn't contain any actual sex, but sex is definitely a central theme (along with love, somehow... that's the part I didn't expect). I'm having fun with this idea of writing stories where the characters don't actually have sex, but it's still about that.
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Did someone link to 'The Book of Water' and not tell me? It got 1804 hits last week, which is almost twice the traffic for any of my other stories, and an enormous amount for a story that isn't new. It's very odd, but not a bad thing.
sex & religion, story ideas
Today at church I started thinking about how my sexuality and religious beliefs co-exist in ways that most of the people I go to church with might not approve of. See, there's this guy in the choir who caught my attention a few weeks ago, with his long dark hair and pierced ears, and I spent yesterday reading something rather erotic, and that tends to cause distracting thoughts, so between all of this...
Anyhow, it's not the first time I've thought about sex in church. Not by far.
And while Catholics are typically thought of as having rather conservative ideas about these things, I think it's all pretty silly to pretend that people only become sexual beings when they get married. Which is how I ended up writing 'Sister Clara'; I started thinking about how sexualized women's devotion of Christ can be.
I'd like to write more stories that toy with how sex and religion fit together, but I don't have any great ideas for one at the moment.
I do have a list of story ideas that I've been meaning to tackle (lately I don't have a lot of privacy in the evenings, though, and that's when I tend to have the greatest urge to write, so I haven't made much progress.) There's a follow-up to 'The Book of Water' that I've plotted out mentally, and maybe another take on some of the elements from 'Not Enough' that would be a lot longer, if I can ever decide how I want to do it. Also, people have suggested a few different interesting things for stories, and I have a list of story elements to play with (bdsm games, cheap motels, music...)
I'm just going to have to figure out how to get more writing done.
Anyhow, it's not the first time I've thought about sex in church. Not by far.
And while Catholics are typically thought of as having rather conservative ideas about these things, I think it's all pretty silly to pretend that people only become sexual beings when they get married. Which is how I ended up writing 'Sister Clara'; I started thinking about how sexualized women's devotion of Christ can be.
I'd like to write more stories that toy with how sex and religion fit together, but I don't have any great ideas for one at the moment.
I do have a list of story ideas that I've been meaning to tackle (lately I don't have a lot of privacy in the evenings, though, and that's when I tend to have the greatest urge to write, so I haven't made much progress.) There's a follow-up to 'The Book of Water' that I've plotted out mentally, and maybe another take on some of the elements from 'Not Enough' that would be a lot longer, if I can ever decide how I want to do it. Also, people have suggested a few different interesting things for stories, and I have a list of story elements to play with (bdsm games, cheap motels, music...)
I'm just going to have to figure out how to get more writing done.
what do I call what I write?
For my inaugural post to this journal, I thought I'd write about labels a bit. I have a tendency to refer to my stories as smut, but I started thinking about whether 'Not Enough' was really smut, in the way I would apply the term to other people's work.
I think it's silly to make a big deal about distinguishing between 'porn' and 'erotica', though sometimes I'll use it as a substitute for calling something soft- or hard-core. Smut tends to be my general term for both, but I think it all implies that the work is meant to be arousing. And I didn't write 'Not Enough' with that goal in mind, though I won't complain if readers were turned on anyhow. :)
Some of the stories I write are thought experiments, at least to me. 'Consent' was an attempt to push at the limits of consensuality. 'Not Enough' came out of a desire to write a story where the protagonist explicitly chooses to not have sex with the handsome, available man who offers, because I wanted to see what would happen next (yes, authors often do not know what their characters plan to do. It's actually somewhat boring if I know exactly what will happen.) Similarly, some of the other stories were ways of playing with narrative style.
I started thinking about this earlier today, because I thought it was interesting that 'sex stories' remains a common term, used for things like compilations of books and Usenet groups. But I think I like it, because it doesn't specify the explicitness of the sex. It doesn't refer to whether the story has erotic intent. It just says, "hey, these people are writing stories about sex." It's general, but isn't that what genre labels should be?
Anyhow, maybe this is a silly thing to ponder, but I'm a postmodern girl. I like to think about labels and what they mean, especially for the things I create myself.
I think it's silly to make a big deal about distinguishing between 'porn' and 'erotica', though sometimes I'll use it as a substitute for calling something soft- or hard-core. Smut tends to be my general term for both, but I think it all implies that the work is meant to be arousing. And I didn't write 'Not Enough' with that goal in mind, though I won't complain if readers were turned on anyhow. :)
Some of the stories I write are thought experiments, at least to me. 'Consent' was an attempt to push at the limits of consensuality. 'Not Enough' came out of a desire to write a story where the protagonist explicitly chooses to not have sex with the handsome, available man who offers, because I wanted to see what would happen next (yes, authors often do not know what their characters plan to do. It's actually somewhat boring if I know exactly what will happen.) Similarly, some of the other stories were ways of playing with narrative style.
I started thinking about this earlier today, because I thought it was interesting that 'sex stories' remains a common term, used for things like compilations of books and Usenet groups. But I think I like it, because it doesn't specify the explicitness of the sex. It doesn't refer to whether the story has erotic intent. It just says, "hey, these people are writing stories about sex." It's general, but isn't that what genre labels should be?
Anyhow, maybe this is a silly thing to ponder, but I'm a postmodern girl. I like to think about labels and what they mean, especially for the things I create myself.
